Posted Thu Dec 31st by J. Kenneth K.
Note: if you’re looking for positive thoughts, or for something to cheer you up, something to help you realize life is worth living, don’t read this. They all stink, the whole team, all of em. Life in general too, while we’re at it, #1 on the Stink List=Living.
I was irate.
Now I’m numb.
Numb to it all.
Numb to the Pro Bowl selections.
Numb to all the free agency/resigning talk.
Numb to draft position or needs.
Numb to every comment or quote relating to “taking care of business,” or “not worrying about what’s out of our hands.”
I’m numb to all the Broncos gear I just received for Christmas. Anyone else feel like packing it all up in a box?
It’s surreal isn’t it?
The Oakland game was surreal. There wasn’t one point where I actually believed we could lose that game.
The Philly game was unreal. I was foaming at the mouth pissed.
I gave up, I admit it, I gave up before we closed the gap. Then they made me feel bad for giving up them. Only to allow a 26 or 27 or 28 or whatever yard scramble for a first down. Damn. Pathetic.
This season has been a downright bummer.
Optimists, here’s your chance to get some comments in.
Comment about how vastly our defense improved, or how the future of our team looks bright. Comment about how McDaniels was the right choice. Comment about sending 6 guys, 3 starters, to the Pro Bowl. Comment on how almost everyone predicted us to win less than 4 games.
I won’t disagree with any of it, I believe all of those things are true, and reassuring.
None of it, absolutely none of it takes away the stinging feeling this season has left me with.
This season is more of a bummer than last season.
I’m bitter, and disappointed, and tired.
Am I watching the game Sunday? Of course.
If we win, will I watch the Bengals & Jets? You bet your ass.
I’ll have one last Sunday to myself, with my Broncos friends, and my Broncos. One last Sunday to immerse myself, to lose myself in a LED flat-screen located in a crowded bar. But I can’t say I’m going to do it with any fire, or heart. What will I do if this is the last Sunday? Maybe hold the record for most times seeing Avatar, Easty and I could start a blog for that. East you down?
I’m fully aware of my bipolar tendencies when it comes to the Broncos. I am done now, but come playoff time? If there’s playoff time. I’m fully aware of the 10 scenarios, of the possibility that these Denver Broncos may get into the playoffs. Would I have fire then? It’s hard to say yes.
It’s hard to say when you’re overcome by the numbness.
For now I’m just gonna go back to listening to Long December on repeat, in the corner, in my underwear and a cardigan, with a whole bunch of dirty dishes surrounding me…I also have a mustache, Jersey Shore is playing on repeat, and I love it, this is what happens to me when the Broncos lose.
oh yeah, Happy New Year.